Im so emotionaly damaged i don't know what to do, help?

im gonna rephrase my last question, i am currently 15 years old, im may to june my parents went through a terrible divorce which my mom partly blames on me, my dad works out of town, all the time i still see him alot though until my mom decided to move back to the country of her birth romania, i have been here before for a month or so every couple years, i always hated it, now i live here it is practically a third world country. my dad hasn't had any work lately so he is not making much money for now, which means even if i could go back to my home in calgary i can't, im stuck, im experiencing third world conditions some days. and im friend less the two people i know here that can speak English are my ten year old brother and my mom(who hates me) im so messed up every dream or every though is about my home and my friends. i miss school because homeschooling sucks, i feel like im being punished by god even though im an atheist. i barely wake up so i sleep alot. every day i get more and more depressed and more damaged, what do i do im asking for help so i don't hurt my self?